Gratuities



This day’s door has been opened with a sunrise and freshness in the autumn air.
The changing colors of the foliage, on the trees contrast beautifully with a cloudless sky, deep cyan in its hue.

I stepped into this pictorial scape, enveloping the air, pristine, fresh and ever new, and at this moment in time I knew that this day was my own, and a day to contemplate all of my gratuities.

The chill in the fall breeze what I have so long awaited for. My home, nestled near the backwoods shall always be my fortress, where I can hide from the world when I wish, and appreciate sequestration and quiescence- at the same time, if I please to do so, I can open my door to my few but special friends to whose camaraderie I at times enjoy, and whose constant love and support I shall always appreciate.

With pen or paintbrush in hand, I can write or illustrate using my creative inner core to express my love for nature or even to cope with those difficult moments I sometimes I am forced to deal with. For this innate gift I am thankful.

Morning walks in the woods, seeing deer hiding amongst the evergreens and sometimes even capturing the sight of a wild cottontail hop across the wayside never fails to make a day one to hold in memory.

The changing of the seasons- the spring thaw, wading in a nearby creek in the summertime, the foliage changing in color in the fall, and the first snow of the winter blanketing the outdoors are some of the many simple pleasures in life I have come to appreciate.

Sometimes it seems as if time travels by too quickly but I realize it is so important that I live for each day and savor it, and do not let it become tainted by sad memories of the past, but only delight in the happy memories.

I know that no matter how difficult times can be and as one-season changes to another,
I remind myself every morning that I wake up and watch the sunrise and when I watch the stars scintillate in the sky at night that I am loved by many, have found my place on this planet with a story to tell and a message to give to the world.

I am so thankful for everything and everyone who have helped me turn my life around for the better in the past few years. Although the process has been sometimes an uphill climb, I realize that for every I road I travel sometimes there are roadblocks and I must turn back momentarily or perhaps take a detour. But these roadblocks are always removed, and I can drive through again.

I am aware, at this moment in time, that I live my life in a unique way, however I have reached a point of acceptance of my inner being, my body image, my sexuality and my spirituality. These are the important things- not unhappy memories of things past or developing anxiety over future issues that have not even been established.

I have had many blessings bestowed upon me- every morning, day and night I find more and more reasons to be thankful for each day I am alive!


Claudia Krizay (schizoclaud)